fucking subcomm. part 1

whatever writings that will be shown below is supposed to a WAS context.

i just found out that i had the shit to post it ...today

i got asked to leave my role as a subcomm member today. I have to say, what a bitter experience it was (receiving the news) the news was delivered through an sms.
Which it by itself better than being said in real life. But things as such shouldn't be said easily behind your phone, there's no authencity in it.

 Plus, i replied to sms, which goes...unanswered. Thats a business-like move indeed, not replying. Let me guess, were you too taken aback by it? I dont think so, i should be the one feeling so.

 You see, i was suddenly being asked to leave without warning. Shocking it is, sad even, and ofcourse rude and uncourteous. Or maybe a more pleasant respond is, you can't come up with a wittier(or rude) respond given that i address how rather uncouth the way you sms-ed. I used the term 'you' because there's apparently two people who does the job of informing people through sms, and there's always that one person who's a tad bit less pleasant on various levels, while the other is relatively nice.

 I know i signed myself up for being a part in the upcoming camp. I admit it wasn't very courteous on my part to suddenly bail out on very sudden notice. Maybe with me doing so, had caused them trouble in finding a replacement maybe? And i am truly sorry for that.

The reason i gave them for my absence is that i can't commit to the role given (gamemaster) which is true. Im tied down for now, with work and studies. So thats why i couldn't reply fast and can't give my full attention if i were to still play the role of gamemaster. Having said so little, i don't think that is enough to warrant a title termination does it? What else have i done so grave to keep that title? Not attending fullcomm meeting? Yes, probably.

Even so, did i not inform that i couldn't attend? Maybe yes and maybe no because personally i forgot what i've said. Or maybe to make me look even bad, i totally ignored the uncourteous last minute notification? Yes that seemed right, not replying something that does not address people correctly, the sms that sounded like an angry demand pisses me off.

 But hey, i was asked to leave didn't i? Or maybe i am already being kicked out because they don't mean whats literally being stated inside the sms? Who knows? Because the leader does not reply helpful suggestions, apparently.