upset.

(ノД`)・゜・。

i get upset and lonely from time to time.

and i dislike that feeling.

people do things together without me.

go somewhere together without me.

i may seem like a sad compulsive person.

maybe i am.

they should like at least ask me out?

no one did.

i had to ask for myself.

and i ended up getting rejected.

dejected.

demeaning.

cheated.

(;_・)

i try not to show it every time.

try not to show how hurt i could get.

i pull it of most of the time cause this always happens online.

online, people could mask everything and hide it from the world's all seeing eyes.

and i don't want it to get awkward between us.

i believe, i do have the ability to let my feelings show and things get ugly between us.

things can get awkward between people.

cause it happens once or twice before.

and it takes a lot of time to heal fully.

（；へ：）

im not asking for people to include me in their activities when they obviously not want me.

but what i want is...

i don't know myself.

humans are hard to please.

i am hard to please.

i don't know what i want from them.

i lack the ability to convey my message at times.

maybe what i need is an understanding.

that, if you wouldn't want people to misunderstand you or ask you questions or wanting to join them,

your discussion should be kept discreet.

private and confidential.

unless you are open to more unwanted guests.

you see,

people talk.