whut school.

school hadn't been really kind to me so far,

some people had though, some.

i can't help to feel a some kind of a barrier between some people.

i'm hanging out with like 5 other girls.

there's two malay kids, and others are chinese.

i find myself hanging/ sticking most with one malay kid, because she's nice? she's quiet?

the other malay kids sticks with 2 chinese kids.

and the last chinese kid kinda like minds her own business.

probably she has got a boyfriend which hangs out with her during breaks .

weird feeling i get when those 3 would be like laughing together and the rest would be like o.o

they even got like an insiders joke (or is it just me)

and the malay kid doesn't like interact much with other malay kids.

do i sound, much like a whimsical kid?

i guess so :/ can't help it.

i couldn't call her ignorant nor arrogant, probably along that line.

other classmates are okay though.

i found a girl, which likes mameshiba, and she's in the same cca group as myself.

(^-^) she's cool and not to mention, sounds INTELLIGENT.

seriously.

ANd there's this other malay kid, which i'm impressed at too, ahh i had a bad first impression of her before,

i feel bad, so now, im trying to get close? o.o of some sort.

i can't seem to talk to guys -.,-

and i'm not even from a girl's school like one girl.

like when there's group discussion or something, i can't seem to talk my ideas out to their opinion.

or agree to them -.,-

and i feel weird when they sit next to me.

before they came, i sit normally, after they came, i'd be rigid if they sit beside me.

rigid as in twilight edward's rigid.

so yeah,i'm a awkwardly rigid character.

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probably because i'm from a private school?

religious school.

i fele o.o wtf when one of our classmate was story-telling to a few of us on how her ahlian classmate was so bad then she went to private school.

o.o

i should probably now say that i'm from a private institution.

(just like whats written on the windbreaker )

there are times where i feel ignored or outcast.

there are times where my opinion / ideas are being rejected.

where my opinions / ideas are being ignored, are being unheard.

normally, i would rebut and make a statement on why is my opinion/idea are being treated that way.

i feel really weird when they talk about terrorism or 9/11.

seriously for various reason.

probably i'm afraid that they'll judge the school i'm from.

my school is no less from yours, and they should know that.

though i doubt, that they know.

because if they know, that malay kid won't treat me that way, the other kids won't interact / communicate with me in a different way, they won't give awkward faces.

OR IS IT ALL JUST ME.

whatever, fuck this shit.